Thank you for not only being my friend, but for loving my babies.

  When I got pregnant I was so excited. I had great friends that I just knew where going to be like family to my baby. So many uncles and aunts, she was going to be the luckiest little girl, so much love. I found out very quickly that, that was not what was going to happen. I chose to start a family at a young age. Some may think that Kylie was not planned. We may not have done things the traditional way but this is what we wanted. I understood that my life was going to change and I was ok with that. I did not realize how many friendships I would lose. 

 

  After I told everyone and the news was out, we were having a baby, I got mixed reactions. Some very happy, but most disappointed and didn't understand why we wanted this so young. I was no longer that fun carefree person they all loved, now I was a "mom". All the calls and invites stopped. I started to get blown off and forgotten. I was extremely depressed, all my friends had forgot about me. My dream of all theses aunts and uncles crumbled. If I did get invited to hang out it was to a bar or a party. Hate to say it but drunk people are only funny when you are drinking. 

  After I had Kylie and the new baby wore off, so did the visits. I wanted my friends to love my baby, I was heartbroken. No one wanted to hangout and if they did it was insinuated that I needed to get a babysitter. I understood that I was now in a different part of life then most my age. I also thought that my friendships were stronger than that. I thought my friends would see my baby girl as family. If they loved me why wouldn't they automatically love my baby. All my insecurities about family and friends were coming true. 

  I continued to try to keep in touch with friends but the effort felt one sided. So after a while I stopped trying. After I had my second child we bought our house. A girl from school with a little girl Kylie's age lived near us. So I decided maybe I needed a mommy friend, if not for me then for play dates for Kylie. 

I wanted to help Kylie find friends that she could grow up with. Maybe if she had friendships from a young age when they got older the same wouldn't happen to her. 

 

  I knew this girl from school was going to be my blessing from the moment we had our first play date. She was so sweet and awkward and funny. She loved her daughter so much. We were in the same stage of live, married with children. We continued to have play dates and text back and forth. She never judged me, we connected. She was so caring and selfless. 

  The more we hung out the more I saw her love for my babies. She didn't only want my friendship she loved my kids. She didn't only care about me she cared for my girls! I can't tell you how much that means to me. How much that means to a mother. If you don't love my kid then you don't love me. I am no longer just me, I'm a mother, my girls are a part of me. In my eyes they are the best part of me. So to see someone love that part of me means the world. 

  I didn't only find a friend that day, I found a sister. I found a role model for my girls. I found a life long friendship. I found family and I couldn't be more blessed. I never thought I was going to have that. I always wanted that best friend to grow with, I found that in her. She is what I've always prayed for.